Wednesday, February 28, 2007

Quote of the Day

A censor is a man who knows more than he thinks you ought to.
- Granville Hicks

So, It Looks....

like I've managed to get over my GH obssesion. I saw him a couple of days ago in the gym and I didn't lose my mind. He is still uber sexy but I'm over him. For the most part. I hope. Sigh. Im still not getting laid. I've managed to get on the "I'm not getting any" track, so its not that bad. Believe me I've got more than enough to keep me busy. Soon I'll be headed home anyway, so it will be all kids all the time. More than enough to keep me occupied and my mind off of my empty bed.

Monday, February 26, 2007

Well Oscar Night....

...turned out pretty well overall. Eddie didn't get his Oscar but J-Hud, Whittaker and Scorsese did. Not bad. Not bad at all. I'm still a little pissy that not one of the Dreamgirls songs won though.

Quote of the Day

You don't pay a ho to fuck you. You pay her to leave.
- Victor Sweet, Four Brothers

Sunday, February 25, 2007

J-Hud Won Her...

...Oscar, that's great. I broke down and called GH, largely b/c I couldn't remember if I remmebered his number correctly. I'd text him twice, nothing salacious, and hadn't gotten a response. Apparently I had rememebered the number but his text isn't working, something with his service he said. We talked. It wan't bad. I'm still no closer to getting any action. Oh well. I can't really pray for any ass but here's hoping some falls out of the sky and lands in my lap.

As I Continue... avoid doing my homework, I've been thinking about my GH issues. And the reality is I just want to Fuck. Preferably him b/c I know what I'm getting: A hot body, a vigorous workout, and several mind-numbing orgasms. Simple. And all that's required from a guy you're just trying to fuck.

Now, since I called things off with GH, I've talked to him more than in the time we were dealing. I joke that in the two weeks after I called it quits, I talked to him more than I did in the last two months we were, "together."

But he seemed to have cooled off recently. Well, at least since I've been making overtures at him. When he was making overtures at me it was all good. But the moment I was like, "Hey I'm just trying to fuck," he hasn't had much to say. Go figure.

While it is true that I am looking for a relationship, I also don't plan on being celibate for the next five years while I'm looking. But I'm also not trying to break in anybody new while I'm still here either. And most folk who I might tap are too close to GH for comfort.

I know I called things off, but I figured if I had an itch that needed scratching here and there, he'd be the guy to call. I mean really, he's already scratched me on any number of occasions already. Why not be the fallback guy. My Dick in a Glass Case if you will. Apparently he doesn't see it that way.

I will say today is a better day than yesterday. Yesterday I was climbing the walls. Today I'm resigned to my sexless status. Sigh.

Quote of the Day

Man, I ain't trying to call no ho no bitch.
- DJay, Hustle and Flow

Saturday, February 24, 2007

I Am Having...

....a serious case of GH withdrawal. I can't shake this boy. Hell, I can taste him in my sleep. Shit. I saw him today in the gym and turned into a flustered fool. I mean we didn't say anything to each other. And still my I melted inside. I saw him first and shifted my seat in hopes of getting a better look. Well he just happened to be sitting in the waiting area by the main floor and I was sitting in the one opposite that area. He waved. I waved. That's it. But that little bit right there completely screwed up my train of thought. I was writing my grocery list and couldn't remember what the hell it was I was supposed to be writing. What did I need from the grocery store again? It was really fucked up.

Hell I want this boy so bad I could scream. On more than one occasion I've been making out with someone else and the only thing I had on my mind was GH. AHHHHH. This has gotta stop. I don't regret calling things off. It was the right thing to do. He doesn't/didn't know how to treat me. He doesn't like me. He's never asked me out. I get it. I do. But damn tell my body that. Hell, on a bad day, tell my mind that. I'm not trying to be his lady. Hell I'm not even sure if he offered I'd say yes but damnit I fuck the hell out of him. He's my drug and I need to take a serious hit. This has gotta stop. Something here has to give. I'm not sure I can take much more of this. Hell.

Quote of the Day

I can smell you in my dreams.
- India Arie, You Made A Fool Of Me

Friday, February 23, 2007

Quote of the Day

Love, like a river, will cut a new path whenever it meets an obstacle.
- Crystal Middlemas

Wow, The Last....

....time I published was on my mom's birthday. Not even my own. Well...let's see. I'm still lonely. Oh so horny. Super stressed about school. Might be moving back to Miami for a year. Possibly starting to produce a documentary. And am currently the senior producer on another documentary for PBS. Not all bad. Not all good. But living and breathing and relatively happy.

Lint Give Up: Slothfulness.

So far, not doing so well. Its early.