Saturday, June 30, 2007

Quote of the Day

Love is always bestowed as a gift - freely, willingly and without expectation. We don't love to be loved; we love to love.
- Leo Buscaglia

I'm So Lonely, Oh So Lonely

Apparently I'm not the only one who's lonely. Mr. Soulsfaith seems to have gone and lost his woman, admittedly over some stupid shit he did, but that doesn't stop the little man from feeling lonely and needing his woman back. I feel ya, little man 'cause I'm so lonely, Oh so lonely....

Friday, June 29, 2007

Part 4 Body in the Closet

Part 3 - Body in the Closet

Part 2 Body in the Closet

Boy, I Tell Ya....

...the wonders of a video camera, desktop editing software and YouTube. Seems like an enterprising young man and his friends thought it would be a good idea to merge the 1985 movie Clue (or the Classic board game on which the movie was based)and R Kelly's masterpiece Trapped in the Closet to create his own little mini-movie-musical, the four part Body in the Closet.

Oh yes he didn't miss a beat. It has everything you'd expect from a merger of Clue and Trapped in the Closet: Singing, Col. Mustard and a body in the closet. LOL.

Bravo, is all I have to say to this ingenious, soon to be YouTube classic. Bravo.

Part 1 Body in the Closet

Tuesday, June 26, 2007

Quote of the Day

Why are Black people so angry all of the time? Oh it's probably some dumb shit you did, White Girl.
- Stopthepresses

Monday, June 25, 2007

I'M BAAAACCCCCKKKK

Sorry for the hiatus. I've been home being daughter, mommy and big sister so that pretty much killed any blogging time I had. Anyway I'll be back blogging full time. Oh there's so much to tell....

Wednesday, June 13, 2007

I Can't Sleep

I'm not sure why. I just can't. A lot on my mind I guess. Felt tired before I laid down...not so much now. My feelings are still hurt I guess. Well I don't guess I know. And this big empty bed of mine is of no use when I know there is no one to fill it. Where is a twin bed when you need it? At least then I wouldn't feel like there's all this extra room just waiting to be filled.

Hell, I haven't felt this bad since my college break up and then I got super slim and was in the best shape of my life. That definitely hasn't happened here but I'm working on it. For whatever reasons it is 10x harder to lose weight then it ever was before. Chalk it up to age or the baby or whatever but I've been having the most impossible time losing any weight.

I realize though it might be because I'm skipping meals. Not intentionally but class, time, laziness and I may go 6+ hours at a time without a meal. Not good. That and I'll get upset or bored and then binge on something I don't need to eat. Not good either.

However I've been looking up diets and menus and the whole nine and the only thing that seems to make since and doesn't involve me completely changing my life is the "French Women Don't Get Fat" model of eating. Basically it just means eat often, in courses and ENJOY your food. Don't battle with it. Sit down, have a meal, turn off the TV....enjoy. No eating while standing, walking or riding and split your meals up. Overall when you eat in courses you actually eat less. So I'm going to try that. Or basically eat like I did when I was pregnant: Small meals around the clock. I was eating every 2 to 3 hours but never anything big. It worked after I had the baby I was down to 130lbs...too small for my liking but small none the less.

But yeah these extra 20lbs have to come off. It's time for a change. On a lot of levels. My weight just seems like the most natural place to start.

Monday, June 11, 2007

Quote of the Day

The art of living is more like wrestling than dancing.
- Marcus Aurelius

Is It Wrong...

...to wish someone would rot in hell?

Oh and my apologies on the last post. He didn't say "stay in the house," he said "the ale house." I really should try reading text messages without my glasses.

Wednesday, June 06, 2007

Quote of the Day

When you're in love you never really know whether your elation comes from the qualities of the one you love, or if it attributes them to her; whether the light which surrounds her like a halo comes from you, from her, or from the meeting of your sparks.
- Natalie Clifford Barney

Things That Piss...

...me off: You say you want to see me. I'm like cool, lets go out. You say I'm kinda broke right now. I say no problem. I'll pay. You suggest Fridays. I agree. Then, after I've gotten ready(make-up, dress, heels and accessories) you say, how about we just keep it in the house since I don't know how to get to Fridays from your house. WTF? You don't know how to get to Fridays? Heard of Mapquest muthafucka? Google Maps? Hell, ask a friend? But we can't go out 'cause you don't know directions? Man, Fuck You.

Monday, June 04, 2007

Quote of the Day

A woman knows the face of the man she loves as a sailor knows the open sea.
- Honore de Balzac

It Never Ceases To...

...amaze me how fast an ex will remind you why he is an ex. SMH.

Friday, June 01, 2007

Quote of the Day

A kiss is a lovely trick designed by nature to stop speech when words become superfluous.
- Ingrid Bergman

So I'm Back....

...home and for all intents and purposes on the rebound. I have an ex here who has been trying to get back with me for awhile. He's easily (as he puts it) been sweating me on the low for quite some time now.

I saw him yesterday and I ain't gone lie...he looked good...real good. And to be blatantly vulgar for a moment still has the ability to get my panties wet. With ease. Hell a kiss on the neck, a nibble on the ear, a gentle caress and that Barry White voice of his and I'm soaked through and through. It's damn pathetic I say but it is what it is.

Unfortunately for me the guy back in Tallahassee who I thought was going to be the rebound guy doesn't exactly illicit the same response. He's not as hot as his pic he has online (we're on the same social networking site) and while he's a nice guy...a nice, cute guy....he just doesn't cut it for rebound material. Rebound guys should be uber hot, well hung and ready and willing to get down at a moments notice as often as you like. He's cute, nice, funny and would probably make good boyfriend material. Not good fucking material. Sigh.

But the real question in all of this is, do I even want to deal with the end of my relationship with GH in my normal way. I mean, perhaps I should use the opportunity to grow up, re-evaluate my relationship choices, learn from obviously poor decisions and move on. As much as I would like to get laid right now...it's not quite as fun as it used to be. I bore a lot easier, the sex generally isn't as hot, and at the end of the day I probably want something more than just a random lay but still not quite a relationship. At least not a monogamous one anyway.

Sigh. I don't know what I'm going to do. My longtime homeboy says I have trust issues. I say I have commitment issues. In reality I have an unwillingness to get emotionally close to anyone issues. What category that falls in I'm not quite sure but does it even matter anyway? It all ends up the same: Me alone, no real prospects and a very empty bed.

Fuck Him....

....really. Just Fuck Him. I'm tired. It's over. Fuck Him.